Ninja by day, student by night

Selina is 5 months today, and what a long day it was!  Gus and I were on a roll since we had a 3-day weekend, and it was so nice to have him home.  He’s been extra nice to me lately and it has really made a difference in the amount of pain I deal with as a SAHM.  He made me breakfast twice, and made me coffee too.  I also got to sleep in after he woke up, he either took care of Selina himself or passed her to his parents.  It was really nice.  I hate sleeping in but I’m so tired lately

Selina must be going through a teething phase or something…she’s been eating almost every hour and taking little hour-long catnaps.  I’m pretty sure she is really uncomfortable, she’s been both sweet and fussy at the same time.  Bedtime has been a hassle as well, she just doesn’t want to go to bed!  I thought maybe her gums were bothering her, but I later realized her dry skin was bothering her, so a fresh application of cream and little baby neck massage helped make her feel better.  She’s been hard to burp lately, and so she ends up spitting up later if she doesn’t manage to burp herself.  It gets on her neck and basically gives her a dry, red rash on her skin.  I’ve been better about putting a bib on her, but she always gets me when I put her down for naps, I forget to put the bib back on!

She’s been super adorable lately, she loves exploring my face and chatting with me, while I try to avoid being poked in my eye and getting little fingers stuck up my nose.  She is slowly working on rolling over. Right now she is closer to flipping from back to front, and she can actually maneuver herself small distances (a few inches) just using her legs during tummy time.  She ends up rotating like a clock because her arms aren’t strong enough to work with her really strong leg muscles.

She amazes me so much, especially when she listens to me reading to her, or how she’ll smile at me when she hasn’t seen me in a bit.  I get now, why people are so big about being moms.  I also think about how unique she is, her heritage as a Punjabi-Mexican girl makes her very special, especially since I haven’t seen many current Punjabi or Sikh Indians marrying outside their culture, much less to a Mexican woman.  In any case, she’s pretty cute right now and quite clever  so I say our cultural experiment has worked.

Sometimes I think about how she might see me, how I can make myself a better person so I won’t let her down.  Every year I make resolutions, most of which I fulfill, but the one that usually eludes me is my weight and fitness goals.  This year I want to be a more positive person, to not fall into the trap of looking for bad things.  I also resolve to increase my fitness by working out a few times a week, and of course, lose the baby weight (15 lbs, sheesh).  I also want to have a 75% completion rate for my projects since I’m really good at starting, but not finishing things.

I think that’s a good start for this year, all these goals are attainable, semi-finite and can be measured in some way.  I would also like to be better about my sleep habits, but I think that might be difficult, especially since I’m here, awake, and not sleeping as I should.

I am tempted to work on my shutterfly photo album but I better not, I will need all my energy to complete my tamales project tomorrow.  Wish me luck!