Ninja by day, student by night

The last post was for yesterday since I forgot to post about my day 1 incentives.  Today I want to do a mile and do some exercises to build up my back and arms.    I calculated my average caloric intake for my age and height, which was 1432.   I don’t really like counting calories, but I definitely will take it into consideration when I’m planning to eat out.

Update: I ran/jogged/walked 1.25 miles, 130ish calories.

Today I have a few things to get done.  I have to return my movies to Blockbuster, return my books to the library and remove some more items from my car so that I can finish clearing out my car.  Ideally by the time Gus gets back, I will have my clothing boxed up and any extraneous items that I don’t use regularly will be put in boxes.  The reason I am doing this is so that his parents won’t realize that I’m living with Gus.  Hopefully Gus will remember to talk to his parents about his birthday party plans.  I think he should invite him so I can go to Seattle and visit my brother.  I think it means a lot of moving around, but maybe it will get him closer towards the goal of talking to his parents about our living situation.  I really hate that we have to hide stuff, it bothers me inside.

I will not get fixated on this subject, because it will only make me upset and I can already feel the tension building in my stomach.  Some days I question my choices, maybe it would have been better to volunteer my time and do something that makes me feel good instead of worrying over things that can’t be fixed.  School is not making me happy at all, I don’t feel excited about going except for the human contact I get from my classmates.

I’m following a 12 week to weight loss article on how keeping myself motivated to lose some weight.  I’m so tired of not fitting in my old clothes, it isn’t funny anymore.  So here’s the first thing I need to do:

1. Set a weight loss plan
2. Set some weight loss goals

So I haven’t weighted myself in a while, but I assume I’m at my old weight, which puts me at an estimated  BMI of 27.5.  If I want to hit the top end of a healthy weight, I need to lose about 15 lbs.  I think that’s a good goal for now.    It’s definitely doable in 12 weeks.

I plan to work out 3 times a week, a minimum of 20 minutes, but ideally 40 minutes per session.  That’s approximately 100 – 250 calories per session.  If I want to lose some weight, I’ll need to lose about 500 calories a day, so I’m going to do some portion control on my meals.  I still want to eat and not feel hungry, so I will make sure to eat 3 times a day.

Technically I’ve been working on this for a few weeks already, I’ve been working out 3 times a week for 40 minutes, but maybe if I give myself a goal to get obsessed about, I might feel more successful.

Monday I worked out for 50 minutes (2.17 miles) and Tuesday for 25 minutes (1.12 miles).

I overdid it last night, reading what was basically a naughty romance novel in manga form.  Unfortunately it kept me up until 4 a.m., so I’m dying here, internally.  I should be ashamed of my laziness from yesterday, although I did get a few things done.  Too bad none of the things I got done was related to school.   Ah well, I packed up two boxes of clothing and colored my hair a dark brown.

I think I’m a little lonesome from not having my baby-ji around, and we still have until Saturday!  I’m going to keep busy though, I need to finish reading the chapters for class, and of course, return my movies.  I would also like to buy a few things to wear, but I’m still at a loss at where to buy clothes that will fit me.   I’ve watched enough What Not to Wear to know what might work for me and to be honest, I need a lot of basics because my breasts are much too big to fit the ones that I own now (from the juniors department) .  I’m still not sure what style I want to convey, but looking better would make me feel a lot better about myself.

Life seems to be moving pretty fast. I kinda feel like the events in my life are going well, but I admit that I get a little irritated by the thought of school. I really need to get motivated, disciplined and any other -ed that will help me get excited about my classes. After all, this is my job.

This weekend was uneventful, and of course, I managed to get a lot done despite my body giving me problems. I just don’t know why I haven’t been getting a good amount of sleep, but I’m sure it has to do with snoring and maybe because it gets too hot in the room. I’ve been getting a nasty knot in my back almost every day, but I realize that if I walk for a bit, it goes away. That’s a great motivation for exercise. Anyway, back to the weekend. I managed to complete the task of cleaning up the cords in the home, Gus purchased this great organizer for it and I think it looks great. I think Gus might have thought I was overdoing it by separating everything and wrapping up the cords in the beginning, but once he saw how easy it was to find everything, he was glad.

In addition to working on the cords, I also got rid of a batch of cd/dvds that were a) scratched, b) out of date, c) unwanted. After doing that, I also organized them by type so we can find them easier. I’d like to purchase a few more containers for organizing our various cds/DVDs, but nothing that has to be done right away.

I wanted to make something good for a snack, and I used a popcorn recipe that I found on the internet. We had such a good time making it, it makes me smile to think back about it. Gus was having fun scaring me because I was nervous about the popping kernels, and kept making fake popping sounds so I would jump out of my skin.

We took turns this weekend to make food, he made chicken tikka and I made a homemade pizza, and both turned out really well. I really need to get my camera set up so we can take pictures of our early days, living together.

Today I did something that was a little scary for me, I canceled my room and gave 30 day notice to Denise. She was pretty nice about it, which made things better, I was worried she was gonna give me a hard time. I think I came off a little sad because I wasn’t with my baby-ji, because she mentioned that she thought I missed him. So we can save some money this way and use the check to buy some much-needed clothes for my wardrobe, it’s looking very sad. When Gus’ parents come to visit, I will go visit my mom and Sophia for the weekend, or go visit my brother in Seattle. I think it will work out better because I will spend more time with my family.

I also talked to my mom this weekend, and told her I was living with Gus now. I admit she annoyed me because she made such a huge fuss about it, like she got a secret out of me. And then she asked me if I was still in school, which I told her that I was still taking classes. I told her and Sophia that I would visit them next month, because I think Gus should invite his family over on a weekend…maybe he could do his birthday party at his new place! Maybe not, but they should come over next month.

Gus was awesome, he fixed my door so I can open the driver’s side door, but now I can’t lock the door! I actually got locked out of my car because it looked like it was unlocked, but it wasn’t! Gus had to drive to the library to help me, because I didn’t have my phone or my keys on me. All I wanted to do was to drop off my books, grab some new ones and go! Sheesh.

In other not-so-troubling news, we also got some containers for my baking ingredients, I was super-excited because now I don’t have a bunch of Winco baggies sitting in my pantry! It was annoying Gus too, it was his idea to buy them.

I wanted to make a fruit pie but I ran out of flour (go pizza crust), so now I feel paralyzed, baking-wise. I like making tasty goodies every week, it makes me feel good about myself.

Now I’m waiting for the UPS man, go-go gadget truck!

How old will you turn in 2009?

I think 35?

What were you doing at 4am this morning?
poking at Gus, trying to make him stop snoring

Whats your relationship with the person you last texted?
girlfriend, best friend

Have you kissed someone in the past week?
I love giving my sweet-babyji kisses

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
Not likely, unless I miss.

Where are your siblings?
My brother is in Tukwila

When’s the last time you cried?
I think I was watching a sad anime

If you found out you couldn’t have kids, would you adopt?
I’m not sure, I think I could be happy not having kids, but if it was important to Gus, then yeah I would.

Do you still talk to the person you last dated?
I can’t remember the last person I dated…is that bad?

Can you take a bra off with one hand? If so, have you?
Depends, some are easier to open than others. Usually Gus has that honor.

How long have you been breathing?
eh…my age?

Do you want to be in a relationship?
Yeah I like being in a relationship with Gus, probably the best thing that happened to me.

Where was the last place you slept besides your bed?
My futon!

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Not really anymore, it’s sad. I guess my brother counts.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
I prefer the idea that things are random so I won’t feel like the universe is against me when bad things happen.

Did you go out or stay in last night?
I stayed in, typical

When is your next road trip?
Probably to Seattle, I want my videogames back!

What were your first thoughts this morning?
oooh, he made tea!

Are you friends with the last person you kissed?
yeps

Do you have reason to smile right now?
yeah, I am pretty happy on the most part

What are you listening to right now?
My computer fan

Are you looking forward to anything?
Settling things with Gus’ parents, going on a vacation, losing some weight

Has any one said they love you in the last week?
yeps, Gus tells me almost every day

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to on the phone?
Gus

What are you craving right now?
sweets, something chocolate

Do you like waking up in the morning to find that you have new texts?
no, that’s annoying

How many times have you lied today?
not today, huzzah!

Are you in the middle of texting someone?
I avoid it at all costs

Can you cross your eyes?
I think so

Would you tattoo someone’s name on your body?
Naw, that’s bad luck

Are your fingernails painted black?
My toenails are, I love black nailpolish

What color are your eyes?
poopy brown

Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
Depends, sometimes Gus closes them

How late did you stay up last night and why?
We went to bed early, I think…Gus was falling asleep on my lap

Who was the last person you had a conversation with and what about?
Gus, and I was telling him I arrived at his workplace

Your most recent ex says he/she hates you, you say?
sour grapes

Who made you laugh today?
ONTD and the gif party

Did you have any unread text messages this morning when you woke up?
No

What are your plans for tomorrow?
Gus needs new shoes, we need plastic totes for all cords, just in general getting out of the house

Do you have a flip or slide phone?
flip

Do you have a crush on someone?
Hmmm, no RL crushes, but sometimes I get a little girl-crush on Angelina Jolie

Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
Many times! I used to thrive on that crap

Whats the mood your in right now?
Antsy and feeling cheerful

Do you wish someone would call you right now?
Yeps, but no telemarketers

Do you have any funny inside jokes?
I have tons with my brother, I hope I can make some with Gus and Sophia

Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down?
Mostly Gus cause he’s good at straightening me out. I have nice friends but I’m not sure how much they want to know from me.

What song are you currently listening to?
No song at all, but I’ve been listening to Lady Gaga lately

What’s the worst abuse you have done to your phone?
Nothing terrible, just drop it a ton and get it dirty

Do you personally know anybody who has more than five tattoos?
I used to

Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

I can’t really complain although I wish I was leetle bit warmer and more motivated to do my homework.

Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in right now?
I’m usually disappointed in myself, but I’m working on that. I’m actually the most disappointed in my landlady for letting her dogs poop in my room and secondly, my mom, for being so manipulative and for being a bit of a nutter.

What was the last graduation you attended?
My high school graduation. I’ve managed to avoid all other graduations.

If you could go to any place right now where would you go?
Seattle

Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?
Side and stomach, I merge the two together. If I accidentally fall asleep on my back, I’ll wake myself up with snoring.

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
Many times

Are you self-conscious?
Yeps, although I pretend I’m not

Does anyone hate you?
I don’t think anyone hates me, maybe my dad. I think that it is more likely that people would think I was a bitch, hate is just too strong for me.

Can you handle the truth?
Not all the time, but I deal with it.

Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
I would if it came to that.

Would you make a good parent?
I’m not sure, but I will do my best

Where was your default picture taken?
at my mom’s house, in my old room

Do you get along with guys or girls better?
I used to get along with girls better, then I switched to guys, and now I feel that I can’t stand either one sometimes.

Do you like to hold hands?
I like linking arms better.

Whats your favorite number?
Still enjoy 13

Do you have any tests or exams soon?
Not right now, thank goodness

Last CD you listened to?
Whatever gus had in his car

What’s on your mind right now?
Trying to get motivated about school, wondering about my future, hoping to accomplish a lot this year

How was your sleep?
it was awful last night, gus was snoring, talking in his sleep and he woke me up early

What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping

Where is your father right now?
No idea

Do you miss someone?
I miss my cat and my niece

Look to your right, what is there?
a box of important papers and my computer box.

What were you doing at 9:30 last night?
Watching tv with Gus

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
I like warm weather for the plants, otherwise I’d deal with the cold

Are you happy with life?
I’m happy right now, but I could be more satisfied.

What were you doing at 7 am this morning?
Turning the computer room into a bigger mess

Were you happy when you woke up today?
I was more tired than happy

Ever thrown a shoe at somebody?
I think so, probably at my brother or Gus, but not in a mean way

Has anyone got on your nerves lately?
My instructor and my classmates in my computer class

What were you doing before filling out this survey?
Cleaning up the computer room

What are you going to do this weekend?
Relaxing, hanging out with gus

Do you get the recommended eight hours of sleep a night ?
I think I get somewhere close to that amount of sleep

Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?

I’d get sick of anyone if I had to spend every minute with them, so no, but I’d be happy with Gus, I like spending time with him

I don’t take New Year’s resolutions too seriously, but here’s what I was thinking about:

1. Find a birth control that doesn’t make me huge
2. Get fit (keep a regular schedule of walking/jogging)
3. Develop a cool program
4. Learn to deal with difficult people (hi Mom)
5. Get good grades on my classes
6. Paint again
7. Keep in touch with my friends

I’d like to continue flossing (from last year) and try not to stress out so much.

Although the beginning of the year has already passed, I’m still working on my degree (a little at a time), and today is the first day of classes. I’m a little nervous as usual, and I hope that my classes aren’t too rough this semester. I’m taking two classes, a professional issues class and a network security class. I’m not completely sure that I can handle the network security class, but I will do my best and now I have Gus to help me study.

Beyond the typical, “hey I’ve been doing okay” sort of message that I’m writing about, I’ve been taking good care of myself (as well as Gus). It isn’t a New Year’s resolution (more on that later), but I’d like to get toned up and working on releasing my stress before it becomes a problem.

The first change is eating breakfast. It might not seem like a big deal but for me, the anti-breakfast girl, it’s big. I started doing this because Gus likes breakfast and since I was on holiday, I thought it would be nice to give my fella a hot breakfast before he goes to work. Gus has always tried to get me to eat breakfast because he felt that my body was probably going on conservation mode since I don’t eat anything for breakfast. I can’t really say that it has helped me lose any weight, but my body is definitely getting used to eating in the morning, even though I don’t eat much.

For me, the satisfaction of having him eat something I made is a bigger motivation than anything else. I’ve also been good about making dinner almost every night, all made from scratch, which is really fun. I’ve made some hits and some meh dishes from my recipes and some cookbooks that I checked out from the library.

The second addition to my schedule is getting a brisk walk on the treadmill. I asked Gus to bring his family’s treadmill to his new place because it would save me some money on a gym membership. It has worked out well for me, I don’t really enjoy getting sweaty and huffy-puffy in front of other people. I’ve clocked 8 miles for last week, basically 4 sessions, 2 miles. Believe me, I’m a terrible walker/jogger, it takes me forever to complete the two miles, but I can already tell my legs are stronger and filling out a bit.

The last addition to my new life is keeping busy. I’ve been living with Gus since mid-December, and it’s been really great. I do get irritated with him sometimes, but nothing serious yet, thank goodness. I think the worst part is that I don’t feel completely at home because most of my things are in Kennewick, in the room I rent. Once Gus talks to his parents about us, then I’ll be free to move the rest of my things in and then I can feel like I truly belong there, instead of a pesky gnat that has to go when the parents visit.

I think there are a lot of great reasons for being happy right now, but the best parts about living with Gus is a) that he likes eating my food, b) having sex on a somewhat regular basis, c) having him around for company, d) having a kind person to confide in.